bukan mengganggu.

kogi lapar.

kogi online.

kogi chat dengan alisa.

kogi seronok chat dengan alisa.

kogi terasa nak keluar.

tapi tak sanggup tinggal alisa.

kogi pujuk alisa.

alisa kata takpe. alisa faham.

kogi keluar dengan kawan kolejnya.

fyi perempuan. name die ariana.

kogi beritahu alisa.

kogi rasa alisa marah.

alisa sering call dan mesej tanpa henti.

kogi rasa serba salah.

pada ariana ade, pada alisa pun ada.

mana satu lebih penting.

dalam hati alisa sahaja.

tapi ariana kelihatan tertunggu-tunggu.

kogi ambil keputusan main mesej lepas makan.

tapi tak sempat habis makan alisa call.

berkali-kali.

"alisa, nanti kite mesej laa ok. i tgh makan."

namun alisa tetap mencari salah kogi.

kogi kelu tak tahu nak bagi alasan ape lagi dah.

"alisa, awak bukan mengganggu. cuma tak memberi peluang sebentar sahaja. kogi bukan menggatal. cuma cuba bersosial. walaupun bersosial, tapi hati tetap pada alisa. ok?"

"kogi sayang alisa. dalam hati kogi ni ada alisa je ok?"

p/s: I love u.

Ekspresi depresi diriku

sekali lagi. aku tak lena tidur.

jam dah menunjukkan 3.48pagi.

k*mak laa.

aku tak suka akan perasaan sebegini.

banyak sangat masalah dan benda bermain difikiran.

final exam, duit, kereta, laptop, cinta.

semak sial!

lepas satu, satu.

lepas satu, satu.

macam-macam masalah timbul.

ape lagi lah salah aku.

banyak sangat cabaran dalam satu masa.

tak sempat nak tarik nafas lega, datang lagi masalah baru.

sumpah tak boleh adapt kalau macam ni.

boleh gila la mhaaaat.

aku kesiankan diri aku.

lebih-lebih mama ngan papa aku.

sebab kesian aku dah tak cerita masalah aku kat dia orang.

sebab tak mahu mereka risau dan aku rasa aku boleh selesaikan.

tapi bila dapat selesaikan kenapa datang balik?

kenapa datang balik!!??

kalau lah blog ni penunai hajat.

aku mintak jauhkanlah masalah yang aku hadap sekarang.

bukan tak sanggup, cuma terlalu berat untuk aku tanggung.

owh blog.

lagi satu permintaan aku.

tolong jangan matikan watak Aleya dalam cerita kl drift 2 tu.

she's to cute to die!

Letter to Alisa part 2

Dear Alisa,

I really had a sleepless night, moving here and there on my bed and thinking about what happen to us. I least expected it, I experienced the worst headache ever, all I could hear was my heart beating much faster than it ever has. I cursed my stars that night, as my expectation for the night was so much greater, but it ended in a far different way that made my heart choke with tears of losing something I've always fought for.

We all made mistakes not trying to understand each other, some words did hurt in some way and I guess we got carried away after all those arguments of whether truly I have some intimate relationship with Fara and Ziqa or even Jane. I guess this issue has always been the stand block of our relationship getting worked out.

I know it's been hard for you trying to understand the real truth. Perhaps I need to give you a chance to find out for yourself whether what I'm trying to make you understand is the real truth or not. Trust is very important, especially in a new and an up-coming relationship, and so I have no objection about you finding out the fact about whether I have a relationship with them.

I know we both said so many things to each other that we least expected, trying to find out the truth about something, it's really hard and needs much time, but I guess I got carried away by saying those words to you. I know you said you can't forgive me, neither will you forget, but I know deep down in me, I've regretted saying those things to you and being the first guy to have said this to you also hurts me a lot. Whether you accept my apology or not *I'm truly sorry for my harsh and unpleasant words.*

Perhaps this is the chance for us to experience the passion in each other. The most important thing is that this is not our first love experience and one thing we must understand is that, in every relationship, whether old or new, we're sure to experience some problems but it's up to us to solve them. These are some of the things that might break our warm friendship and everything we are planning ahead of us.

We need to understand each other and try to have the trust that will make this relationship work. I know you want this to work as much as I do and I still have my hopes up, never giving up on you. Let me tell you this thing that I believe in a real relationship: "It doesn't take beauty to make a relationship but the heart and the mind." I know what I've seen in you and have a special reason of choosing you. Your perception about guys is really not correct, guys are never the same, maybe some times you might think we think alike but the heart shows all the difference.

For now, I know sorry is just a word, but for what it's worth I am very sorry for hurting you last time. You caused me pains too but and I'm really confused about everything. I much want things to be stable and that you get all the time you need to make your decision. I love you so much and never will I think that I can forget you. Hope to hear from you... I remain yours ....

Love always,

Kogi

Letter to Alisa

Dear Alisa,

I sit here in sorrow, wishing I could hold you. I've realized that I've tried to replace you over and over since I made the foolish decision to leave you. But, no one can make me laugh and smile like you do. You are the only one that ever made me so happy.

No one could ever take your place. I feel as if my soul has stolen my heart and left me to cry myself to sleep each and every night with guilt in my heart of how I hurt you.

I guess you just don't realize what you have until it's gone. I was so stupid to leave you. I know sorry is just a word, but for what it's worth I am very sorry and I beg with every ounce of my soul please forgive me!

Love Always,
Kogi

Answer to 'S' query

Love is a fire.
But whether it is going to warm your heart or burn down your house,
you can never tell.

there's the answer why it happen.